The week in review.

It's been a bit of a weird week full of bittersweet moments. The first downer was that as of last Wednesday my plans to go back to college have been put on hold until next semester because of loan and other money issues. As much as this sucks, to be honest it was a bit of a relief at the same time. It's my own fault because I put off meetings with advisers and registering for classes which made for a very hectic and rushed process that really didn't leave any room for any random snafus. So as unpleasant as it was to have to put off the ultimate goal (college degree and hopefully an eventual masters in womens studies) for another 3 months, at least I have learned to go into next semester with everything already figured out.
On the upside I got to spend a decent chunk of time on Saturday with my best friend from high school, Melissa*. Our hang out times usually consist of bad tv, some sort of crafts, and trying to decipher the mysteries of the universe. No matter what we do or talk about I always feel calmer somehow after we have been able to chat and laugh and just be silly together.
One more down side to this week was that after like 10 months or so the boy and I decided that it was time to stop seeing each other. This was also bittersweet on so many levels because as much as we both know we just don't work together in a way that could go the distance, so to speak, it sucks to end something with someone you care about. After sitting and talking it all out with him for a while I went home and spent many therapeutic hours with my sewing machine and mp3 player. It is weird how soothing it is to me to sit at that desk with Bessie** and make something beautiful while belting out whatever old song comes through the shuffle of my mp3 player... it's home to me.


*She is very selfishly leaving me in a month or so to take a job in Hawaii for at least a year. As much as I hate her for leaving me here alone down-in-g-town, I know why she has to go and hopefully I can save up enough money to visit her while shes there.
** Bessie is my sewing machine. She was named one day while costuming a show in college and in a rather cracked out and sleep deprived moment and friend of mine and I decided she looked like a cow. Hence the name Bessie.

Where do we go from here?

I've reached a point where I have absolutely no clue what to do with this blog. To be honest, I'm not sure I ever really had a clue. I think I just wanted it to be a sounding board for my life, but my everyday existence isn't really that interesting. I also dabbled with the idea of writing about being a young cancer patient in the hopes of helping some other young person to feel connected to something or someone like them. But that idea really only works when I'm not avoiding my cancer patient status (yes I am aware that is bad news bears). So where do I go from here? I don't want to just walk away from this baby, but I need some sort of a game plan on how to utilize it in a way that will keep both myself and my whopping 9 followers interested (thanks for reading guys!). I'll have to think this one over and let you guys know what I come up with... suggestions are of course welcome :)