Autumn Blues

Every leaf speaks bliss to me,
Fluttering from the autumn tree.
-Emily Bronte


For some reason this week I find myself longing for fall. I think I am just longing for the carefree sense of life I feel when i can spend my days in sweaters and jeans. I am always at my most happy when I am comfortably bundled and I miss the feeling of a scarf blowing in the wind. I also think its because starting in the fall of last year I began going through this weird frumpy phase where everything I wore or purchased was over sized and un-flattering. It continued on through the winter and it wasn't until recently that I sort of woke up and realized that I can only feel beautiful when I send beauty out into the world. So that is what I have been doing in every way I can. Not only have I been trying to make my work wardrobe feel more like me, but I have been trying to be as kind and generous to those around me as I can. An amazingly smart and wonderful friend of mine is working on a life theory about how "we can only expect kindness from others if we send it out ourselves" and that is exactly what I have been trying to do; and fall is the perfect example of the world giving as much of that beauty as possible to me.

I have lived all of my life here in this small corner of the world and very ignorantly I assumed that the rest of the world had just as beautiful of a fall experience as here. That is not the case, however. Most of the world is denied the beauty of changing leaves with their vibrant colors and earthy smells. I really think fall is one of the main reasons that no matter how far I travel I know I will always end up back here. Fall just feels like home.

For me it means adding so many amazing elements to my life and brings back so many amazing memories... it's leaves, trips to the farm, a bundled existence, blues music, local bands, picnics in the park, pumpkin flavored coffee/various pumpkin treats and just quality time with the people I love. So as much as I hate to wish away the great things about summer, there is a huge part of me that is so ready for the majestic-ness of fall.